I was reading Our Debt Blog today, and he linked to a website that flamed him totally. ”Hilarious!” he said. And it was. As I read back posts of this guy’s blog – namely the Financial Retards of the Month – I cried laughing at his posts about The Simple Dollar. I was in tears, dying of laughter. I mean, he counted up the number of times “frugality” was written in The Simple Dollar and compared that to the number of times “and” was written in the Bible. Ridiculously funny. Then I got to the February one.
Holy shit. It was me.
It’s the first time (that I know of) that I’ve been totally and completely flamed…and I can’t say I don’t deserve it. I’ve been an asshole, really, a boring, complaining, self-centered asshole. I mean, I remind myself of FB posts I hate of people who just complain about their lives…over and over and over again.
WTF is wrong with me?
I was stunned into silence – and I really wanted to email the author and tell him what facts he had gotten wrong about me (there were a few) – and decided to confront the fact that this blog turned into something I hated. I mean, when I began it, it was to document the reasons why life was great so we wouldn’t forget it. What it turned into was a fucking bitchfest! This is why I haven’t posted in a while – because I feel like a fraud when I do. I don’t live on an island in the middle of the sea, this blog isn’t about what makes living on an island in the middle of the sea worth it, and I’m in a totally different place than when I started.
I don’t like being that bitch who complains. Also, I realize (from reading the post) that people may think that not only am I a bitch who complains, I am living on government food stamps while enjoying my organic groceries and eating them too (untrue, have never been on food stamps). No wonder I was flamed. And no wonder I read through what I’ve written and cringe in…wtf is wrong with me?
I appreciate the support from anonymous people all over the place, but I’m considering taking this site down. Am I letting the haters win? No, I’m wondering if I want the reminder of a pretty low point in my life. I wanted this blog to be about all the good of Hawaii – that was the original intention. I don’t even live there anymore. Should I rename it “Simple Continent Living”?
So, I feel like an asshole, I’ve been flamed on the internet, and I’m wondering where the person I thought I was went, and when I was replaced with spoiled bitchy-McBitcherson.
On the plus side, I’ve finally got a job offer. Only took 7 months…though I was pregnant for 5 of those.
Thanks for your support peeps. And the blog I’m flamed on is funny, although it’s not so funny when it’s you being flamed.