A long time ago, a friend of mine started a company. ”I’m bored,” she said. ”A bored me is a scary thought,” she said. She poured time and money and more time and more money into a project that she was proud of, but in the end didn’t take off (as most start-ups don’t). Still, I find that descriptor very apt for myself as well. A bored me is a scary me.
So let me just put this out there: I’m bored.
I’m at what feels like a stalemate in life, and my friend was right: It’s scary. You know why? Because I want to change EVERYTHING. When I’m at a stalemate, I start thinking about everything that has gone wrong and get 1. Bitter and 2. Anxious for Change.
Change! Change, change, change. I need it right now. Nothing is going quite right.
We’ve been waiting over a month to get a preapproval letter from our Broker to see how much we can afford to buy. It’s getting tiring. The position that was promised to my husband for the past 3 months has been rescinded. And my parents decided to spur of the moment come into town – which caused a literal anxiety attack and incredible stress for the past week. Things need to breathe…things need to change. And of course, things need to get better.
So here’s my list of things that would make my life better (from easy to attain to…well, not).
1. A dresser. Because we have none in our house and instead have clothes piles.
2. A wall mounted TV and credenza. Because then we could actually have the TV against the wall and a place for all the kid’s toys to go in.
3. New Business. I have plans for two (letterpress store and consulting).
4. A New job for my husband.
5. New House.
You notice how towards the bottom things sort of got…unattainable? Yeah, me too. So, how about this one?
New hair. How do you feel about Ombre?
My sister said, “it’s the end of winter. People start getting itchy.” I’m definitely itchy. Thank god it’s spring.